To Fit

This past weekend I made one of my friends rent "Lincoln", I say made because he really didn't want to watch it at all, but before it even ended he was telling me what a great choice I had made. It was a very well made movie and enjoyable to watch. Some where towards the last half of the movie there is a clip that really got me thinking on some interesting thoughts.
Lincoln is in the telegraph room deciding on what message to send down to Gen. Grant in regards to some C.S.A. representatives. In the room with him are two other men, one the telegraph operator the other we find out is an engineer. Lincoln asks the operator a question that was something of the affect of "Are we put into the time that we are made for?" the operator responds "I don't know about me but you are sir." Lincoln looks to the engineer and asks him as well. The engineer responds by letting us know he is an engineer and that he seems to have some of the right pieces but maybe not the exact right fit.
Today I was looking at some music videos on YouTube and ran across people auditioning for shows like X-Factor Australia that were singing songs that I was looking for. In one of these the young lady was very nervous, had dropped out of school and was pursuing a dream. The judges seemed a bit weary especially after she said what song she was going to sing. Yet once that first note came out of her mouth they were all taken aback and ready to cheer thing nervous young lady on.
These videos made me start wondering why moments like those really get to us (the audience), I mean you see people crying they are so moved. What is it about that moment that makes that happen? I think I found that answer in the movie "Lincoln". In these amazing moments with those singers we the audience get to see someone that found the moment they fit into perfectly. You hear them sing and KNOW that they were made for that. Just as the operator said to Abe, I don't know about me but you sir do fit into the moment you are apart of.
I don't say all of this from the point of view of a person that knows exactly how and where they fit in, I share this thought as a person still desperately trying to figure that out for myself. I watch that movie and enjoy those songs but it makes some part of me long so badly to show everyone how I fit perfectly in some place or another, but alas that part has no true voice to me yet so all it can do is grunt and tug at me as I try to make sense of it all.
If you feel this same tug send me a message I can share with you the way to try and start making more sense what is trying to be told to you.

Oh Chuck Me

So obviously I am really bad at this whole blogging consistently thing but I guess that fits my life, I start with one thing then I get distracted then run off and forget about the first thing until a few weeks later when someone mentions something that me remember the first thing. Everyone clear on all that? Yeah clear as mud huh.
That kind of line of thought really does describe me over the last few months. I was blogging in January then I got all of the seasons of Chuck and watched them all the way through. Once I finished that I really wanted to see if I had any skill at acting, so I looked into a few things talked to some friends in the biz and had some photos taken. I even sent in a few applications for some gigs as an extra (never heard back on any of them). I didn't find an agent or anything. I got back into work and let the acting thing take a back seat.
As the months rolled on I was kind of all over the place with what I wanted to do. Then I planned a trip to see my best friend in Nebraska. Saved some money to afford the trip. It had been nearly 3 years since I had seen him last. This trip sparked some old ideas about being involved with church as a youth pastor or involved in christian camps. So I have started looking into that area again.
Also the company I work for is building a store in the town my parents live in so also on the back burner is whether I should look into transferring down there or not. It isn't a town I really want to go to but family is there.
Who knows what shinny thing will come around and change my focus next. Hopefully it will be a good one that fits me and lets me feel like I am doing something with my life.